reasons why my life sucks

1.  i have no job

2.  i don't have my license

3.  my grades suck

4.  i'm not happy without xanax, and that's not cool

5.  i don't have a boyfriend

i'm so fucking tired of being alone. you have no idea because you probably have someone. all my friends have someone to care about and who cares about them and it's really starting to get on my nerves. all i hear these days is oh i get to hangout with my b/f or g/f this weekend  and i don't fucking care. good for you. thatnks for rubbing it in. it seems like the only time i'm actually happy is when i have someone. that's because i don't think about all my problems, i have something to focus on. so i liked a guy lie a month ago and he knew about it but obviously didn't like me. that's cool. then the guy from last weekend turned out to be a total loser so nothing will come of that. now, the guy that i currently kinda like doesn't exactly know that i exist. i really wanna talk to him but i can't for two reasons. the reasons being:

1.  i'm too shy to talk to him, unless i go to where he works and tell him my order which is usually two buffalo snackers (which kick ass by the way)

2.  even if i did have the balls to talk to him he wouldn't like me anyway, seeing as that's how it always goes for me.

i'm just going to give up on guys and go back to being the nobody that i was last year. when i didn't look around for someone i didn't get hurt and i didn't feel like shit like i do now. well that's all for my bitching today. leave a comment if you want, i could really care less.